The “G” word

This is the part of life in general that always tripped me up; God. Every time I went to treatment, or got a sponsor, or went to a meeting that was what EVERYTHING fell back on; the existence of a higher power of some sort. And it almost infuriated me! Why in the hell do I need to believe that some dude in the sky is watching all the fucked up stuff going on here and it’s all part of his grand plan. I refused to even attempt to understand what a higher power was to me; because in all honesty it’s different for everyone. When I went to treatment they’d tell me to believe in something; God, the universe, a Flying Spaghetti Monster, even a fucking pencil, just something. I thought they were all morons. Who is their right mind would believe any of that horse shit? I’ll tell you who, generally healthy and well rounded people. I was too stubborn, not ready to change, and thought I knew all the answers and these schmucks were just here to brainwash the weak willed. Harsh right? Right. I’m here today to tell you that those schmucks were right. Every one of them to some degree. You need to have faith that there is something out there greater than you, a greater plan, an eternal love and understanding. I don’t believe in a “God” necessarily, not some magic guy floating just judging folks and sending them to eternal damnation for their wrong doings. I believe in the power of the universe, the eternal, all knowing, understanding, omnipotent connection between everything. I believe that we are all connected, we are all here for a reason and our goal in life is to figure out what that reason is and share our gift with the world. I believe that we as people have a designed plan but we have free will so if we chose to leave the course the universe had planned for us, then we absolutely can. But the universe has a good and wonderful plan of each and every one of us, it doesn’t want us to do harm, but we have that choice. I connect with and listen to the universe every morning when I meditate; to align myself and receive answers to my questions, and direction in my life. The universe is constantly speaking to all of us we just have to take the time to listen. Everything that happens in your life is trying to send you a message to point you in the direction you’re supposed to be going, every hurdle, every victory. Everything is a lesson if you choose to see it. Take a moment to slow down, close you eyes, and listen. What is the universe trying to tell you? Are you headed in the right direction? Are you floating in limbo directionless? Have you headed down the wrong path? It’s never too late to alter your course. Have faith that there is a plan for you. Not a single one of us is here by accident.