Heal what ails you

Something that drives me nuts is someone who’s identity is fixated in their own unwellness. A person who is constantly looking for something physically, mentally, or emotionally wrong with themselves without the desire to fix it and only the desire to use it as an excuse for their own misery. These kinds of people vibrate at the lowest level and almost suck the energy out of the room. They constantly have an excuse for why their life isn’t what it should be; “oh I have this mental illness so I can’t do that” or “I had this injury in the past and now I can’t” or “I had this past trauma so now I can’t”. It’s constantly “I can’t because..” ITS EXHAUSTING! I don’t understand the desire to be so miserably stuck in the past that you let it dictate your present and future? Why would you want to stay miserable? I know change can be scary but I promise you it’s well worth it to look deep inside, resolve those issues and move the fuck on. It’s time to love yourself, every rotten piece of yourself, and get happy. Quit using your past as a hindrance and use it to empower yourself. And I’m not saying that without experience, I swear. I have been abandoned, beaten, and abused by those who said they loved me. I’ve seen friends die. I’ve lived squatted in my own home without power. Been shot at, kidnapped, and thrown in a trunk. I suffer from a mental illness where in the worst of times I suffer from auditory and visual hallucinations. I suffer from a connective tissue disorder that causes me intense pain some days. I’m a recovering drug addict. So, when I say it’s possible to come back and use your past as motivation to move forward I mean it because I’ve fucking lived it. Quit using your past to hold you back. Don’t wait until tomorrow, don’t negotiate with yourself anymore. You are strong, you are resilient, you are capable. Quit sucking the life out of yourself and everyone around you. Now is the time. Heal what ails you and become a powerhouse.