Who am I?

You know what I’ve realized? I think this is exactly what trips a lot of people up, my self included for a long time. Going back to work and bringing the kids to daycare has forced me to remember who I am outside my roles. Outside my role as an employee, outside my role as a wife, outside my role as a mommy; who is Taylor? When my husband has left for work, when my kids are at daycare, when the chores are done, before my shift starts I’m alone in an empty house. Well, not entirely alone, I’m there alone with myself. I’m alone with the person that used to be my own biggest enemy. My problem used to be that I’d get so caught up in these roles I played the moment I was alone I didn’t know what to do, I’d lost myself and the self I was alone with I hated. I’d hated her for so long. I thought she was a bad person, with bad thoughts, that did bad things, and that deserved bad things to happen and with that mindset it was a self fulfilling prophecy, I set myself up for failure every fucking time. The difference now? I’m not scared to be alone with myself because I know who I am and I love her. I am an amazing person who deserves amazing things. I am a person that occasionally has bad thoughts that I choose to acknowledge as only a thought and then release them. I am a person that works very hard for her family which is a role a love and I know I am a unique person outside of that role. I am a person that has done/is doing/ and will continue to do great things. I am person that loves to learn. I am a person that loves to help people. I am a person that has a deep connection with my higher power that I enjoy connecting with daily through meditation. I am a person that loves my body and I enjoy taking care of it and finding new ways to love it better. I may be great at the roles I play in my life. I may love everything about the roles I play in my life. And I must not forget that I am a person outside those roles. I must remember to love her and cherish her because without her I wouldn’t be able to play any of those roles. Get to know yourself, who you truly are. Be kind to yourself, love yourself, and treat yourself with the same respect and dedication you give to the roles you play. You are a great person, inside and out, who deserves love and respect.