But I don’t feel like it..

Today my alarm went off and the first thing I thought was, “I don’t feel like it today…maybe I press snooze, skip my workout, and sleep in a little bit before I get the kids ready…no one would know the difference”. As soon as the entire thought processed through my mind, I rolled my tired ass out of bed and started my workout, I even threw in an extra 100 squats at the end before yoga and my meditation. Now here’s why I did it and then some today even though my mind and body said “I don’t feel like it”, not to punish myself or because anyone was watching, but to hold myself accountable. On the days where my first thought is “I don’t feel like it”, those are the days I need it the most, those are the days where I really test my will power, my willingness to be and feel better, and my willingness to persevere in spite of myself. Because if I’m willing to let myself get in MY OWN WAY then I’m willing to let any obstacle trip me up in my journey for self improvement. You can either be your own worst enemy or your own best motivator. I got up at 530 this morning and did a 20 minute workout, started my laundry, did my hair and lash treatment, did my teeth routine, got the kids clothes ready for when I wake them up; why? Because I’m not going to stand in my own way. These might seem like silly insignificant things, but this has been my morning routine without fail for the last two months and I promised myself I was going to keep doing these things no matter what because it makes me feel good inside and out. It brings me a feeling of accomplishment to be able to keep my word to myself. I vibrate at a higher level from the moment I get up when I’ve got my routine done. And if that isn’t enough of a sign right after I did all that I read my morning meditation and anyone want to guess what it was about? It was about laziness and it giving into yourself when you want skip the things you know you should be doing. No one’s watching me in the morning, no one tells me I need to do these things, the house won’t spontaneously combust if I sleep in; but I’ll know that I gave in, I’ll know I broke that promise to myself. So I got up, I did what I need to do to be the best version of me. I’ve given up on myself enough to know what it feels like to quit and where that lands me. No more excuses, no days off, I’m keeping the promises I make to myself, because I’m ready to put my best foot forward. Becoming the best version of yourself isn’t easy, but if you can start small and work your way up you’ll see anything is possible. Don’t stand in your own, don’t give into your own desire to be lazy. Laziness isn’t self care, love yourself enough to challenge yourself.