What’s your end goal?

I’ve said this before in some earlier posts, but for those of you that don’t know, I am a 6 time convicted felon. I don’t say that with pride, but it’s part of my story. Ever since I caught my first felony charge I always said that when I’m able I’m going to ask for a pardon. I’ve looked at the application for a pardon so many times over the years I know exactly what I need to do to be able to submit my request: no crimes and to be off paper for a year and explain why I should be granted a pardon are the main points. I’m case y’all weren’t aware I used to be licensed to sell home, auto, life and business insurance in 47 states, but my insurance license was permanently revoked on the federal level due to my own poor choices. When I was convicted of my first felony I desperately wanted to get a pardon so I could appeal the revocation of my insurance license. Now, years later, still not yet able to apply for my pardon, I had been thinking why do I even need one? I’ve realized I hate working in an office more than anything, I hate working in sales where you’re selling something people don’t necessarily want to buy, and working customer service for people who only call in when shit hits the fan. I really only wanted that job back because it’s all I knew, I knew I was good at it, and it was my comfort zone. I now realize that’s not even kind of what I want for my life, but I still want to apply for a pardon once I finally qualify. Why? Not because I want to go back to having the kind of life that I actually fucking hated, but because I want to prove to myself that I can do it. My end goal is to keep moving forward, to keep progressing, and improving. The end goal is to never stop. I want to prove to myself that I won’t stand in my own way any longer and something that I’ve let hold me back for so long can finally be in the past. I don’t want to let my past continue to define me or the trajectory of my future. I made some very bad choices in my life, but change is possible for anyone and I will get my pardon and I will prove to myself and everyone else that anything is possible as long as you put the work in.