Misery loves company

There are people in my life that I realize have been put here to test me, but I’m beginning to realize I may have misunderstood the test. I have hurt my own feelings and ruined my own day far too many times expecting different from someone who’s proven over and over again that they aren’t willing to change. I’ve been trying to level up and release that I wish to possess, but with some people I feel like I’ve been holding the door open to their feeble whimpering only to have them slam my fingers in the door. I see where I’ve been fucking up is I keep opening the fucking door with a smile hoping they’re not going to do it again knowing full well that’s exactly what’s going to happen and then getting upset over it. You can’t reason with someone who is set on misunderstanding you. Some people are so stuck in the past wallowing in their own self pity they’d rather bring everyone around them down to their level rather than trying to raise their own. There’s no way to argue, reason, or negotiate with someone like this because no matter what they’re going to be the victim in every situation. It’s incredibly frustrating to watch and be a part of because no matter the situation they make you feel as if you’ve wronged them somehow and nothing you ever do will be good enough. It’s damn near emotional abuse and the true test here is not to endure the abuse while trying to get them to see the light. The test is to offer them a way up and if they refuse understand that not everyone is ready to change. Even if you can see their worth and see the life they’re living isn’t even close to as good as you know it could be; if they aren’t ready then you’re wasting your time, your energy, and your own well-being pouring into a black hole. I will no longer waste my efforts on people that are not receptive to any kind of help. I by no means have any ill will towards them and I truly do wish them the best and I look forward to the day that they do realize they deserve better, but until then I will just quietly release love for them from a distance. Misery loves company and I will no longer entertain or invite it.