My siblings love you, to them you’re great, you’re everything they need, they have their complaints but what child doesn’t? It’s different for me, I’m not yours I get that but you’ve been there since I can remember, but it’s different. I pretend like that doesn’t bother me, but in all honesty what girl doesn’t want a dad? I always have and I’ve never gotten one. Today was supposed to be my day, today was supposed to celebrate my marriage and you said you’d be there. I even verified with you days ahead of time. I don’t know why I got my hopes up. There were so many people there, but not you. You never came, never texted me back, never answered my calls. I don’t know why I didn’t expect it, I should’ve. So, when my siblings said you were just sitting at home I was crushed. Just sitting at home watching your phone ring. I don’t know why it blind sided me. I should’ve known better, you’ve always let me down. I was really hoping you’d be there to hug me, to celebrate this huge moment, to share in the love. It was such a happy day that is tainted with so much anger. I am so angry at you and at me. I’m angry at you for hurting me again and I’m so fucking angry at myself for getting my hopes up and letting you hurt me again. Fuck you. Fuck you for never being the dad I needed. Fuck you for never being able to put me first. Fuck you for letting me down over and over again. Fuck you for lying to me. Fuck you for pretending like you’re trying. Fuck you for even wanting to be a grandpa to my children. Fuck you for tricking me. Fuck you for making me feel stupid. Fuck you for making me feel small and insignificant. Fuck you for giving me hope. And fuck me too. Fuck me for believing your lies. Fuck me for getting my hopes up. Fuck me for thinking you’d be any different than you’d ever been. And most of all fuck me for hurting own feelings expecting different from someone who’s proven time and time again that they’re incapable of changing. I’ve always wanted a dad but I guess I never fucking needed one so fuck you any way. To hell with you, I’m done.
Fuck you
I’m Working on It 
Oh honey! I am so sorry! I understand your pain and I wish I could take that from you. I don’t understand why he did this, but it is time to break the trend. You have a man who won’t let you down and most of all won’t your children down. Celebrate this!
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This was my last straw. I’m done. There’s no place in my life to have myself or my family treated as an option. I love you!
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I hope closing that chapter brings you peace. 🩷
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Thank you 💕
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I am trying to figure out what to say. It isn’t you, it is him. He is a piece of shit. Don’t ask him for anything. I love my mom even though I grew up in chaos and neglect, but you know, parental love blah blah blah. I learned to have a relationship with my mom I cannot depend on her at all. If I don’t count on her, she cannot disappoint me. What a piece of shit though. And your siblings telling you he was just sitting on the couch are not the best either.
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It hurt, but it’s exactly what I needed to realize who he really is and what needed to happen. Painful lesson but one that I think will benefit me in the long run!
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Congratulations for finding your voice on this matter. Don’t get me wrong, fuck him, but I’d rather celebrate your strength than condemn his weakness.
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I’m proud of you for writing this. Too long, we stick to honor rather than honesty, while dishonoring ourselves.
But also, please, be compassionate to yourself for having hope, for having a belief in human decency. This says volumes about your character and kindness. Please don’t let his inability to be decent steal yours!
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I’m one to give lots of chances, especially to those I love. Unfortunately once I’ve been burned too many times I will cut people off. I’ve recently developed the ability to no longer allow the people that hurt me to have any access to me. It’s taken a lot of work, but once I’m done, I’m all done. He’s blown it one too many times. Family doesn’t continually hurt family and then cry when they no longer get the opportunity to do so
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Sure. Totally. Ya gotta protect yourself and your kids from that needless pain. If he wants a place in your life or theirs, he can earn it. But he’s nowhere near that now!
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I agree!!
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He is a shit. He does not deserve your anger, not one more tear. Fuxk him
Look forward now and forge a life without him in it
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